In much of the Bible, the Judgment of God is a great hope to be invoked by the people of God. It is invoked, at its worst, as a punishment of enemies or as a means of control. In its best form, the hope is in a Reality that frees us from the need to be judge, a posture that, when we assume it, inflicts us with a condition that profoundly clouds our vision (Matt. 7:1-5). When God is Judge, I don't need to be. I can accept what is as it is.
How often do my thoughts and my words seek to manipulate what is? How often do I avoid the uncomfortable, formative moment?
One poignant image from this passage is found in number 50: "When evil thoughts come into one's heart, to dash them against Christ immediately." This metaphor plays out often in my experience. I find myself daily falling prey to habits of thought and emotion that are at home in my small egoic mind instead of in God's large, unitive mind. I become the judge: impatient, overwhelmed, contemptuous, defensive, and, at the core, lonely. When I am given the grace to recognize this in myself, if I turn the attention of my heart to the Master, I find Christ to be as close as my breath -- patient, at peace, kind, generous, and hospitable. At this point I find on my lips the request, "O God, make speed to save me. O Lord, make haste to help me," and Christ comes to me in that moment as liberator, as savior, as the judicious and longed-for Judge.